3 posts tagged “misi”
Ok semi real update I suppose since movie update and the artlog on my site weren't exactly real updates.
First I don't think anyone who reads here regularly has any family in China, but if you do... family, friends, whatever, I hope they're ok. Holy... Watching news this morning was so sad. So many schools collapsed.
I was already kind of sad for My bot before bed... And of course there's a wave a storms, Burma/Myanmar (whatever we're supposed to call it). Seems like the world is having a tough time lately...
Which makes me not want to complain, but I will :P
I wish the MS Brain aliens would take a vacation. I know it's not a full on exacerbation. Same old symptoms. Just ugh. Pain alien isn't controlled as he had been (though in fairness he's not as active as he used to be either so still somewhat controlled, err.. yeah just even a few stabs to my head that make me stop everything to grab it and make me feel all twitchy = feels uncontrolled, heh). The alien that controls sleep, well he's on crack. He has be so tired that while talking to MY bot I was so out of it between tired brain fog and pain alien I was correcting words I typed right and then having to correct that and fix which ones I meant to fix in the first place. I can't fall asleep, can only pass out -- today that was at at around 1-2 pm. Then am so tired and in pain when I wake up I don't feel alert enough to do anything.
I have been working on painting for Misi but it's been going like this, do some, err looks wrong, erase, redo, err wtf? not right, erase... etc. Good thing I'm painting it digitally ;)
Viddler appears to like me better than YouTube. A - I played around with the idea of making videos not art private on YouTube, and setting friends could see (small friends list there) but then I found if you do that you can only set up to 25 friends so if your list gets bigger later too bad AND when you set them that way it spams them with you've been sent a video AND it spams your own outbox, not once with a cc, but for each person you sent it to *blinks*. YouTube = inefficient. *nods* Haven't really used the feature yet, but on Viddler you can comment on a moment of a video so instead of people saying, as they do on YouTube @ 1:22 look for this, they can just comment at that time of the video pointing out whatever right then). Interesting. Thankie to Miss A.. for showing me the site, I could tell you her name, but then I'd have to kill you *nods*
Err my wrist hurts. My eyes hurt. Waaaaaaahhhhh! But yeah I ranted enough. Oh for the first time ever I made money with Google Ad Sense today, w00t!
Since Mijn Favoriet and I seem to exchange cheesy games that we find now and then, I'm sharing with you all his latest find: Snot Put. I tossed the snot 3656m. w00t!
My day = slept, sent Meneer Bot voice spam, banned some cheaters on MM (love ones that announce on irc to everyone they're cheating), talked to Mijn Favoriet briefly and Meneer Bot longer, worked on Misi's mail - decided it wasn't right and started over so it's looking better now, and had to stay up til now (9 am) to be sure Brian got up to make a deadline after he slept for 2 hours. I think Brian's got about 8 hours of sleep total this week maybe. He's going to be sleeping lots once this gets turned in, which is fine as I'm HOPING I can crash now. Then it'll be coffffffffffeeeee night instead of day I think as we both need sleep. zzzzzzzzzzz.
I'm on a negativity strike...
Tonight someone told me I had a good attitude as we talked about MS and my headaches, etc. A few hours later my normal decent mood faded temporarily. I was being bombarded by just pure negativity is so many directions I can't begin to list them. Life is not bad 24 hour a day, every day. On my worst days, when I think my head is trying to kill me, when I can barely stay awake yet can't sleep, when my whole body is numb and painfully tingly or just pained, I can still find something positive. Try it. The worst day of my life thus far was the day I learned CynDee died. I still found love and was able to appreciate that, though it was tough. I could still say thank you to those helping me through it.
Malibu homes are still smoldering... be glad you didn't just lose your home (some of the most expensive houses in the country I think). Be glad you're not dying a slow painful death. Be glad you have friends or family that love you. Be glad for something... I don't expect all cheery all of the time, that would annoy me and make me question your sanity. If you do have a serious issue, I'm there for you. If you don't abuse my kindness and love for you, I'm here. A little hehe moment in the midst of all of the negative crap is good. Guilt trips... I'm on strike from those too. Keep them to yourself, they won't work and will just make me grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!
In the they keep me sane department:
I did get to talk to Mijn Favoriet more than usual. We're not always online at the same times for more than a few minutes at a time. We have plenty of real chats but on an average day we're usually only guaranteed a "hi!", a few *KENK* (our own word) messages, and perhaps a "morning" or "nn sleep well". And yet he always seems to be there to talk when I am about to snap. Guess his SUPER psychic powers aren't as ev0l as I usually claim them to be. <3
I also got to talk to Meneer Bot, which is very good since he'd been busy for the last few months and we really needed to reconnect. I apologized tonight, mostly for things he says I didn't need to apologize for. The truth is I wasn't fair to him in the past. What I was dealing with when I snapped made me re-think some things and I did owe him a BIG apology. <3
I got to watch Misi try to explain try to explain the term "doggy style" to mijn favoriet because I told her he couldn't translate that to Dutch, heh. <3 I should have just pasted those irc logs here, instead of the I hate negativity rant. *grijnst*
Oh and Brian listened to me bitch about people who are making me feel Bitchy <3
This was long, I tried to keep it short but wanted to make a point...
♥ Ik hou van jullie allemaal ♥
